The pebble

It is driving me crazy. Joseph has a pebble that is small and smooth but he protects it dearly, I don't know why. He took it out of his shoe, and was excited to show it to me.

Well, I think it is interesting...

Does it even count if it does not likely seem of interest to anyone else, but it does to me and I am my only audience, really.

Ok, here goes, perhaps I will complete a thought before my battery dies. When two people are involved anytime a meaningful union occurs the complexity of the union fluxuates. Huh?

The compatibility of two distinct wills fluctuates. What I am trying to say was so brilliantly captured in this lyric, "I'm open, You're closed."

And so I conclude that it is a miracle that any family ever existed and it surely required tons of faith in some greater purpose to unite and glue or seal parteners for ever. What I find most interesting is that it is done in such a state of ignorance, I wonder why that is. Did I know? Does it matter?

Let your light so shine?

We'll see.

In Ether 12 in the book of Mormon we are told that the Lord can make weak things strong unto us. So, I believe fully that running is a God given talent, and I will have it again, if just to prove that despite what science tells us and my ever growing tiredness, I will not give up! When I reach a point where I cannot seem to go forward I will pray harder and expect blessings. Maybe others will never even imagine the way I started and think my running just continued gracefully from birth, as It ought to have. I still believe that the greatest use of the body is in running. I feel a need to run that is so strong sometimes! It nearly brought me to tears when I could not even walk. My best friend tried to comfort me by saying, "not running Isn't such a big deal. Most people do not want to run anyway." Well, I do.

When I could I did not. It was not important and was not pursued. And they say "Use it or loose it." But, now that it is not even a real possibility for me, and requires a miracle, now I miss it and want it more than singing even. Next I am going to look up all of the scriptures I can that include the word run.

Perhaps, this talent was taken away so I would appreciate it. Though I cannot fully understand how this talent, when developed could be used to help others.

A living thing

Mom told me once about a type of photography where after a living thing had died, in the case I am thinking, it was a leaf and though part was missing, in this type of photo it still appeared.

I was thinking about photographs of people and wondering if the trapped image was of anything but the body. Cause yesterday we talked about how after death a body seemed incomplete and different without it's spirit. Are photos frozen moments of a living thing or are they just images of the visible body? I sorta feel like more of an essence is captured in photos somehow, maybe that is why we "Smile at the camera" to capture emotional state, too because physical is somehow not enough to record a living thing.

Relativity

You know how a clean house losses significance when a child needs you? That's how it is with love.

Through the eyes of love

I don't know if it is what the author of the lyrics, "...looking through the eyes of love." But, I am drawn curiously to certain images and as I admired them, I started thinking. Hmmm maybe it is myself I am seeing. Because, I am.able to notice so much goodness and beauty that I must have. Simply because it is not me. Yesterday, I was asked to think of what I loved about myself and how we should love others as we love ourself. So, as I was thinking, "This is me." Only better. I thought maybe I love to look because I see love and love is the foundation for everything.

Man's purpose

It is not what t seems.

I will list examples:

A group of people thought their planet was saved from being "cultivated" by life-sucking aliens because they killed themselves before they got old enough to be desirable to their foe. It seemed logical, but truthfully it was just a means of population control so they would no become too large or spread colonization to areas not protected by a "shield".

In a blessing s man was blessed that he would go to the temple with his wife and children to be sealed forever. but she died and one child left the church. It could be assumed that this "blessing" had been a lie, or maybe it was wrong to assume his fate included the family that was present.

I could give more examples, but the children are demanding my attention, by their actions.