The stupid things we do explained

I was thinking alot about what Kymm said about doing stupid things for boys. It is true and we find out that they were mistakes, according to what? As I pondered on her counsel that it would all work out in the end I thought, yeah, if God knows everything and Makes plans to protect his master plan from being thrwarted, which i do know, I can extrapolate that he knows the mistakes I made and make and techically, they are all accounted for hence "God blessed the broken road."

It was rediculous for me to up and move one day because I found a boy that
I was hoping for, but wasn't sure if he even exsisted, it seemed worth finding out. All this time, I retained some good friends though he claimed I didn't. Now, I see how others require outward signs for things to be understood. I am often misinterpreted because My words don't match my body language, though my words are accurate, I just never learned the unspoken way of communicating and it tosses people for a loop when they get two conflicting messages from me. I didn't expect a job in Nashville, and I didn't expect to seriously fall in love with this boy, but one thing after another after another caused me to write in my journal that my life didn't matter one bit before we met and it would take forever just to know him well enough, Taking forever? Well, that and his explanation that he had prayed about me and felt like it was right... Oh! I was so stupid to fall for that same old line, but I wanted it to be true, and we get what we want. Then, why the heck did he divorce me? If there is a bit of reality to the things he claims to believe then his action simply cannot be understood. He must have known something, though he never told me, out of desiring to save me ebarassment, he claims. I don't get it still. but, I know to stay clear, it was a mistake, though I do believe I had been prepared for it, only I didn't realize it until I look back. At the time, I figured I was just doing a service, or kind gesture in letting an older woman give me the most peculiar advice, I do not think it would benefit anyone else, nor even make sense. Alot of people would tell me strange things, I suppose that commonly happens when you are unexperienced and a thoughtful listener. Only, I didn't get what I was being told. I bet that is similar to how God feels about telling me things though.