Beethoven revisited

I can never wander too far in nearly any direction mentally or otherwise without a red flag popping up reminding me of Beethoven. It started in elementary school music class, piano lessons, and throughout college music courses, but today it was unexpected:

Beethoven composed his greatest music after he was deaf.

Ok, no big revelation to anyone that he was deaf, but it was curious to me that the teacher likened it to a runner loosing ability to use their legs. I thought alot about "Dr. Strange" who looses ability of his hands and accordingly looses his self worth because his self was tied to being a great surgeon. This is what prods him on to end up saving the world, though it was never intended.

What was most peculiar and made me think about it more was that I had never thought of music composition as relying on any senses. To me Beethoven naturally would compose better music when he was not limited by the way he observed his music with his ears. My dad used to talk about hearing this great music but being frustrated by trying to capture it and make it audible. We all "hear" music and even words that never make a sound.

My older brother drove a seminary teacher crazy because wheneber she would ask him to read or such he would sit for a while and then ask, "oh, did you mean out loud?"

Anyhow, how this all ties in is that again I am reminded that my impediments may only be blinders to force me to do and realize what I have.

The Jist

I took many notes today of brilliant things that were said that I wanted to remember, and when I write them down I will not likely reread them, but I have to think them twice to write them down and for the time when I focus on a particular thing, it gets more nural oathways devoted to it. As a trainer, I learned a technique that seems well proven of repeating things to insure they are actually stored in a way that they can more easily be recalled upon request and so I hopeby recalling s few thoughts over again I will have recorded them 3 times thereby learning the, right?

This was information given to teachers, but had such practicality to any parent.

"It is so difficult for teachers to not give attention to bad behaviors." Especially when that is the intention and thereby cause of the bad behavior.

"When trying to alter a bad behavior, it needs to be replaced."

So often, the observable behavior is a "symptom" or result of something other than what is expected. If a child is lacking a thing the may lack the ability to communicste that and so they exhibit a behavior that is percieved in a different way than it was intended. A good example would be a child who cannot concentrate because they are hungry and focused on food, but they act distracted and unable to focus and even confrontational. At first glance these behaviors might be seen as some special need or cognitive trouble, but such a child once labled as cognitively "special" is more likely to actually become such and have negative lifelong side effects instead of just getting a healthy breakfast.

That last little bit was just what seemed to be the overarching message of my instruction today.

Guilt is oppressive?

It occurred to me that the very motivation or judgement of a thing falls due to a sense of ought or morality. The most formidable foe would be one who could dull or remove any guilt, thus granting freedom. Terrifying, that is exactly the thing being destroyed constantly. It feels like the ideas, satisfying if not extended any further, that were presented last year by some evangelists who tried to explain an eternal goal in terms or mortal motivation. The message boiled down to an idea that God made a beautiful garden in which he intended man kind to live in forever, never being burdened by failure that comes from knowing anything greater exists. Fortunately, Adam and Eve decided that suffering was worth it to be aware. I am not positive, but I think it is better to feel guilt at failing to treat one another with kindness because it is supposed to be, not naturally IS.

Copper Scroll

I want to scream at the tv. I  am watching a documentary about the dead sea scrolls because I actually had been very close to them when I went on a blind date to the dead sea exhibit at BYU years ago. And they are grasping to find a reason a sect who was not materialistic would have such a document preserved on copper which would have been difficult to keep.

It is obvious to me that money was buried and documented, like a time capsual, like the "voice from the dust". Because money would be needed to rebuild the New Jerusalem this was a pious contribution to that end. It seems almost obvious to me but, they keep quoting "scholars believe" and each readon is completely wrong.

So, I said my piece.

I think the owners of the Dead Sea Scrolls are the same Church of God as is the "Mormon" church. As I have observed from archeological information compared to Latter-day temples.

Homosexuality

Ok, I just saw a thing that cannot be unseen and I had so many "snide remarks" welling up that I respected expressed wishes that I keep my snide remarks to myself and "get a blog".

There was a photo showing locations that punished homosexuslity by death. Instantly I thought, well duh, move then, if you do not like the rules sonewhere. It reminded me of that Lady why lived in Mississippi and felt prosecuted because she was not religious and tried to remove all prayer from social life. I get so upset, how one or few people want to gain their "freedom" by taking away everyone elses, when  people are "free" to live where they want. Second I sort of laughed at the terminology "punishable by death" cause, to me homosexuality already is such in itself. I mean, think I f Animals and how many genus or species are homosexual. Probably, any that were are endangered or extinct, unless sone species evolved to a point where sexual reproduction did not require both sexes.

My final tirade was how on the map, it was instantly obvious that the only places where it was acceptable were non acvanced, third world countries. So, in a blink, I thought, hmm, it must be a part of being civilized to realize the punishment of a bahavior that otherwise might kill off a nation ought to be discouraged. With that I wondered if further enlightenment comes because of cultural advancements or whether the enlightenment causes advancements.

What you need...

Acording to the words of Jordan Peterson
"You need a philiosphy that can withstand tradgedy."

Remember this

"Reality manifests itsel in the particulars."

"Chistanity died at the hands of it's own construction."

"Action is oriented by thought." That is the same Idea I got from reading a preface or something in "Lectures on Faith".

I love how the exact same idea can be expressed in a way that it (the communicated message)becomes a symbolic spear or sword that pierces the heart.

As a side note, I was noticing that I can feel a much stronger, noticeable pulse in my stomach than my wrist or even neck. That means something... I AM an alien. I knew it! So close, but tiny hints are there, eat you heart out Mulder!