My thought is best explained throughthe dynamics of a scene from the film "Amadeus". There is a woman opera singer who is looking for a teacher/tutor. The man she asks wants to teach her. She asks if Mozart would be a good fit. Ofcourse, he explains that he would not, citing that Mozart is very unattractive. She replies that such a thing does not matter to a woman of taste.
That is what I was thinking. I try to praise myself because 100% honestly physical appearance or sexual attraction plays NO role in my choice, yes choice (I did not FALL inlove either).I chose to marry upon different qualifications altogether, but there are qualifications. Sadly, I am realizing that my relationship cannot endure, nor did I sincerely expect it to.
If I had been sincere I would have prayed to know if it was right. I did not actually consider it. I only needed immediate protection and financial provision. Then, I figured it was too late, besides Brandall had prayed and said that he knew that He was to marry me, then he divorced me, so it did not matter what I had or had not been told what was right right then. It could change anyhow. It was all a matter of wether or not I could keep a promise. So, it is very important that I learn what my promise actually was, not what I thought it was.
